Think on Such Things

For me, the last post on anger was a musing of the past. It was emotions that have taken me years to work through and at times, still work through. It began when our family lived in North Carolina several years ago and this journey of having a medically complicated son began. I found myself more and more angry at what God was doing with our life, about how He was orchestrating everything for His glory. I didn’t get it! I still don’t in many ways. That anger that I experienced so frequently turned to bitterness and distance. I just didn’t want to read the Bible. I didn’t feel like going to church. I didn’t want to teach my kids about God because I just didn’t trust him. It was a dark season. At times, it still is. My heart felt so sick and what was worse is that I could see where I was. I have grown up surrounded by the Church all of my life and I knew that my heart was growing cold. Honestly, I don’t remember what the turning point was. I don’t think that there was a big e...

This week has been a doozy! We’ve gone through weeks like this before and we thought that they were just the new normal that we had to get used to. Weeks where Moses has these crazy highs and lows. A week where we batten down the hatches and kick into survival mode. No budgets. No showers. No breaks. These weeks make me see the wonder of dry shampoo, wet wipes, credit cards and early bedtimes. They happen about once a month or maybe every 6 weeks. Truthfully, I’m not too sure about the timeline because these weeks are a blur. With everything that has been under concern with Moses's GI tract, I wondered if this were another ileus. That thought drove me to email his specialist and ask for an x-ray. I felt like he was in a lot of pain, besides the fact that he kept saying “owie.” When he’s in pain, he seems to make raspberry sounds with his mouth a lot, like 90 percent of his waking day. Which then causes bleeding lips. His stimming activity is at it’s peak and he can’t seem t...