Freedom!!

I think that God has allowed me to see something great! I think that He's given me a blurry glimpse of what He has created me for! I only wish that my heart desired this truth more often.

So, I was reading a friend's blog the other day and she said something that I just couldn't get out of my head. She said, "How can something be so worth it even when it means that it will NEVER be about you again?" It started to make me think...are all the best things not about me? I know that there are good things that are about me, but are they the best things? Do I only settle for what is good when I think about me? Do I sacrifice best for what is only good? I'm more and more convinced that good is the enemy of best, not worst!

Anyway, I read her blog and then went for a walk around GCU's campus. That's when God gave me a moment of clarity. I walked around and just looked at everything. I started to look at the trees and how they swayed in the wind. I started to see these amazing colors that were all around me. I heard the beautiful melody of the birds. I saw a glimpse of the creativity of God and I was amazed! I started to ask myself..."What does this creation say about the Creator?" It tells me that He is beautiful and makes beauty according to the flower. He loves diversity according to the many colors. He is constantly holding all things together according to gravity. He is constantly bringing about change according to the wind. He brings refreshment according to a soft breeze. He is huge according to the testimony of the sky. He provides a covering according to the trees.

I looked at it all around me and realized that everything that I was thinking and seeing were beautiful. And the amazing thought is that it had nothing to do with me! The most captivating, refreshing, beautiful thoughts that I had yesterday had nothing to do with me! Do you know why it really was amazing? Because it was about God, about Jesus, about my Creator. It was about the Author and Perfector of all things. It was about the Origin of all that is good, beautiful and perfect. I'm convinced that is where freedom is from!! It's in losing sight of myself! That is what is best. John the Baptist said, "He must increase and I must decrease."

I know that it will be hard, but I'll have to start learning that freedom as a mom. That the really beautiful moments in life will be the ones that have nothing to do with making much of me.

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Lees said…
Wow Mel - this is good stuff - thanks for encouraging me today by what God is teaching you!

Love always!!!
Your "partner" - wink, wink!
June 6, 2008 at 4:12 PM
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